May 6 question - Do you have any rituals that you use when you need help getting into the ZONE? Care to share?
I'm skipping the question because the answer is simple: no. Instead, I'm sharing a post I wrote on my Patreon that I think pin points why I'm personally struggling to do much of anything right now.
There's a constant feeling of fatigue hanging just under the surface. Which isn't surprising. I've read that a lot of people are feeling sapped and worn by the pandemic. Our lives have all been disrupted in one way or another and it's like we're suffering from collective whiplash.
One thing I've realized that's been draining me is a fear I have. My 9 year old nephew has a compromised immune system. Before this blew up, I was worried about him. I honestly kept expecting a call saying he got Covid-19. When schools were closed for two weeks I was so relieved. That closure has extended, but I still find myself afraid for him. I realized why earlier this week:
I'm terrified of having to attend his funeral. It wasn't long ago that my brother died of cancer. The image of my dad fighting to remain composed enough to accept the flag from a Navy officer is etched in my memory. I can't stand the thought of it being my little nephew. I don't want to see that same expression on my family's faces again. (Just had to stop and walk away before I started bawling.)
So, yeah, it's hard to write with that hanging over my head. News stories about people breaking quarantine in my state to protest not being able to go boat do not help.
I hope wherever you are, you are safe and healthy, and your family is as well. My fingers are crossed that a vaccine will be found and this will be over sooner than later. We can go outside and enjoy interacting with each other again. And most importantly, everyone is safe.